shine at beacon:)
Saturday, January 29, 2011 ♥ 1:22 PM
work has been veryvery draining,little vampires sucking away all my energy.and lotsa saikang by the other teachers..
little monsters 2/8 driving me crazy~
always enjoy going into 2/1,little angels:))
and spending time talking and playing with little darlings from 1/3 even when i've no recess duty, just love seeing them and such innocent, genuine happiness when they see me.
the little things they do like little rachael feeding me her biscuit,zhi hao blow kiss at me,jingjie giving me gummy and force me to eat immediately,anthea snuggling up against me on the canteen bench,chunjia telling me about her japan trip in dec,ignatius/dingzhang proudly trying to show off to me how good their math are,kishan calling me pretty jiejie,even ryan accidentally 喷-ing his half chewed egg tart on my face while talking to me too excitedly and completely grossing me out....all the small but thoughtful things they do and the seemingly insignificant things they talked about ever so excitedly are things i wanna remember from this work experience,things i wanna soak myself in,coz in them,i see pure and genuine human hearts;hearts of little children,no wonder even God says,unless you become like one of those [little children],you'll not enter my kingdom.
even though when i go to the canteen now,i'll be "discovered" by the 3/4 kids within 5secs and after which i can forget about having a peaceful lunch...i really thank God for these kids' er..fondness of me(:S?) which i can't understand coz i don't even teach them,i just sit-in their math class occassionally...i guess they see in me more of a friend or dajiejie intead of a teacher which could be why they love to suddenly jump out from nowhere and scare me from the back,chase me around the canteen,clinch on to my hands so tight i can't even open my wallet to buy food,and hugging me real tight before going away to line up when recess ends....which is kind of overwhelming coz they don't do it one by one but as a group...like jellyfish wrapping arounds me..but somehow it just warms my heart every time.
i'm so glad kierol's not crying every morning now when coming to school and the bright sunshine smile she puts on whenever she sees me:) i can't describe it but she has such beautiful and sweet smiles,a smile that can light up the darkest corner of the world,a smile that can melt the "stone-est" heart,i pray that she'll keep smiling.
每天的工作虽然很辛苦，但是小朋友们的笑脸和拥护是我每天起床的动力；尽管2/8真的很坏，尽管声名狼藉的princeton总是叫我Miss Jaywalk,可是当odelia送我一张她画的画，erika送我一张她为什么喜欢我的小字条，看起来坏坏的jetrickson真心的跟我说一声byebye Miss J 的时候，心就化了。。
I feel that "bad" kids like princeton are actually good at heart,they behave the way they are probably due to some unspoken reason,i see a good boy in him,which makes me really wanna reach out to kids like him;i might not be powerful enough to change him,no;but i'm hoping that the least i can do,is to help him see and understand why he's behaving the way he is..and how he can change for the better,but the choice is his,i'm not a magician,i'm not a god,i can't MAKE it change.
most of them will forget me soon after i leave,after all they are just kids aged 7-10...but i'm hoping that for some of them,even after they grow older,they'd remember that once upon a time there was a teacher who reached out,who made a difference.i don't even care whether they remember my face or name,i just hope that i can teach them somethings that will last them for a long time,things out of the classroom,things about life,about treating people.i believe teaching is not just about filling students with knowledge but equally importantly,shaping their characters.
i guess despite everything,when i look back at my experience thusfar,i see more of rainbows and sunshine:))